Powerful stuff about finally being able to scream in those dreams. The shift from silence to voice is such a tellig marker of internal change. I've had simiar experiences where the body memory of powerlessness shows up in dreams long after the conscious mind thinks its moved on. What really gets me is how the nightmares mirror the collective anxiety so many feel right now.
You really don’t have to search hard for the symbolism! Maybe my brain is too tired to work that hard right now. And yes, it is not fun having nightmares or waking up screaming, but it is a lot better than spending the agonizing time inside the nightmare, not being able to speak. So I’ll take it. There really is so much collective anxiety and grief these days. Hugs to you.
Man it really got me to think about encountering people around me as if any one of them could be your child. And how little it takes for us to not be strangers. I've never met you but I know you'd treat my most precious people so well, and I'd do the same for yours. Would that we could all walk through life with that attitude. 🙏🏼❤️🩹 Really glad you found your voice.
We may not have met, but I know if I met you and didn’t know you were you, we would still know each other somehow. And I know if you encountered one of my children they would be safe with you. It absolutely guts me that I don’t feel that way about more people, or that a good 37% of people give me pause, and you can’t tell by looking unless they’re in a red hat. Or masked and holding an AR-15.
I was telling a friend today that while I still feel outrage sometimes when I see laughing emojis or cruel comments under posts about people being harmed, I think I’ve moved to this new place where most of the time what I feel is grief and horror. It’s a terrible thing to watch people lose their humanity.
Anyway, I appreciate you SO MUCH. And I am sending you a lot of love ❤️🩹❤️🩹 Thank you for being here, and also “out there.”
Damn Ally you hit that emotional place in me today. Those are powerful and scary dreams. A couple of weeks ago I was in the Dollar General near my house and a man and his baby girl in arms came in asking about a woman who usually hangs out on the bench next to the store. No one knew much about her if she was homeless or lonely or what....he bought her a banana and a bottle of water. When I was in my car I saw them talking and she was holding the baby. I burst into tears. These are the moments that are saving me. Let's just look at each other, see each other. It is where I have to start.
I love this, Sarelle. And I agree, I think that is the exact right place to start. Sending you so many hugs and a lot of love. Not being okay right now is a sign of sanity and empathy. The people who are okay are the ones who scare me. Xo
Love that you are yelling but sorry you are scaring your dog. I have always been told I whimper in my sleep but now I feel like I’m getting louder and more restless. Take a break if you need to. I have to sometimes. ❤️
Yes, I do take breaks throughout the day and sometimes I take a day or two to regroup if I start to feel like I’m not okay. I know it’s a marathon and I try to stay focused on ways to help, and not every horrific thing they do. Some days I do better than others 😬 Thanks for being here, Mary, I so appreciate you.
And I think the dog is starting to assume this is just a thing I do, lol. He sticks his head up and noses me and then goes back to sleep. Hopefully he’s more weirded out than scared 🙏🏼 He’s so cute.
Powerful stuff about finally being able to scream in those dreams. The shift from silence to voice is such a tellig marker of internal change. I've had simiar experiences where the body memory of powerlessness shows up in dreams long after the conscious mind thinks its moved on. What really gets me is how the nightmares mirror the collective anxiety so many feel right now.
You really don’t have to search hard for the symbolism! Maybe my brain is too tired to work that hard right now. And yes, it is not fun having nightmares or waking up screaming, but it is a lot better than spending the agonizing time inside the nightmare, not being able to speak. So I’ll take it. There really is so much collective anxiety and grief these days. Hugs to you.
Man it really got me to think about encountering people around me as if any one of them could be your child. And how little it takes for us to not be strangers. I've never met you but I know you'd treat my most precious people so well, and I'd do the same for yours. Would that we could all walk through life with that attitude. 🙏🏼❤️🩹 Really glad you found your voice.
We may not have met, but I know if I met you and didn’t know you were you, we would still know each other somehow. And I know if you encountered one of my children they would be safe with you. It absolutely guts me that I don’t feel that way about more people, or that a good 37% of people give me pause, and you can’t tell by looking unless they’re in a red hat. Or masked and holding an AR-15.
I was telling a friend today that while I still feel outrage sometimes when I see laughing emojis or cruel comments under posts about people being harmed, I think I’ve moved to this new place where most of the time what I feel is grief and horror. It’s a terrible thing to watch people lose their humanity.
Anyway, I appreciate you SO MUCH. And I am sending you a lot of love ❤️🩹❤️🩹 Thank you for being here, and also “out there.”
This is so incredibly lovely, thank YOU for being here Ally. I'm so with you on all of it.
Damn Ally you hit that emotional place in me today. Those are powerful and scary dreams. A couple of weeks ago I was in the Dollar General near my house and a man and his baby girl in arms came in asking about a woman who usually hangs out on the bench next to the store. No one knew much about her if she was homeless or lonely or what....he bought her a banana and a bottle of water. When I was in my car I saw them talking and she was holding the baby. I burst into tears. These are the moments that are saving me. Let's just look at each other, see each other. It is where I have to start.
I love this, Sarelle. And I agree, I think that is the exact right place to start. Sending you so many hugs and a lot of love. Not being okay right now is a sign of sanity and empathy. The people who are okay are the ones who scare me. Xo
Love that you are yelling but sorry you are scaring your dog. I have always been told I whimper in my sleep but now I feel like I’m getting louder and more restless. Take a break if you need to. I have to sometimes. ❤️
Yes, I do take breaks throughout the day and sometimes I take a day or two to regroup if I start to feel like I’m not okay. I know it’s a marathon and I try to stay focused on ways to help, and not every horrific thing they do. Some days I do better than others 😬 Thanks for being here, Mary, I so appreciate you.
And I think the dog is starting to assume this is just a thing I do, lol. He sticks his head up and noses me and then goes back to sleep. Hopefully he’s more weirded out than scared 🙏🏼 He’s so cute.