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Nan Tepper's avatar

Ally. Yeah. Thank you for writing about Munro. When the news came out, it hit a chord so deep within me, it triggered all my old abuse wounds. I will never read her work again. I have no desire to delve, or find a place of forgiveness for her betrayal of her child. I can send her the energy of compassion (if it can reach her in the grave) for lacking the wholeness to make good and honorable choices. What was broken in her? Obviously, many things. I have a mother who acted similarly. Did not defend me, but instead defended the boy/man. The weakness, the lack of "mama bear" hurt me deeply, many times. And still, and yet, I love her; it's just that sometimes, I don't like her very much. She's still here. I haven't abandoned her. What I am learning to do, slowly, is accept that she's never going to be the mother I wanted or deserved. She's the mother I have. When you said that you didn't want another mother, that stopped me for a moment. I had to ask myself if that's true for me as well. And yes, it is. My mother is many things. She's sad, she's lost, she's a child in a woman's body. She was hurt, and never recovered. And she's full of life, talented, a lover of people, and art. She gave me gifts, she gave me love, she gave me pain and heartache. I will not parent her anymore. Nothing is straightforward. Our lives are messy. I'm coming to forgiveness, because I see her through a more realistic lens. She gave me life. I'm here. It's enough. And let's hear it for our crews! The people who hold me up when I need it, and step back and watch me shine when I don't. Love to you.

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Sonbol A.'s avatar

I hadn't heard about Alice Munro and I just can't wrap my head around it. My mother is a tiny little wisp of a person but she has always made it known that if anyone harms me or my sister, she will hunt them down and rip their head off, and I have no doubt that she will do exactly that.

I'm glad you have your people, and I'm glad your kids have a mother like you. Here's to all the moms who have managed to heal their own wounds and who make sure their kids never doubt their love for even a second.

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