I hate that he’s gone, too. Every time I think about it my eyes well up because if you’ve ever experienced the pain of saying goodbye to a dog, your eyes won’t ever not tear up when someone else is saying goodbye to theirs. It’s a singular, painful painful painful experience.
I’m so sorry there’s so much shit. I wish I could come cry in the couch and hear Chewy stories, but please know I’m over here in AZ holding a corner of that grief with you. He was the very best boy— I can tell ❤️
Kate, I don’t know what I would have done without you the last two weeks, and I do feel you holding up a corner of the sky for me. I wish you could come sit on the couch, too. I don’t know how we say goodbye to our sweet, good, bestest dogs. It hurts so much and I still can’t believe he’s gone. It doesn’t seem possible. But I’m so lucky to have friends like you who understand and let me sob. Now I just need to find an electrician who doesn’t call me Jennifer. Love you.
Oh Ally, I'm so so sorry about your sweet Chewy. I know for sure he was the goodest good boy that every lived (as are all dogs) and it's just so fucking unfair that dogs don't live forever. Sending you and your kids so much love, I know how devastating it is to lose our pups. I still find myself looking for our best girl Molly who died almost 9 months ago 💔
Thank you so much, Sonbol. I lost my last dog 2 weeks before I had my son and thought the grief might kill me. Watching my kids go through this heartbreak is awful. I know we’ll all get through it because there isn’t an alternative, but it’s so hard. I’m so sorry about your Molly 💔Dogs really should live a lot longer, that’s the only thing I’d change. Sending you lots of love x
I'm so sorry, Ally. About all of it. Mostly about Chewy, and about how when we lose our kids' childhood dogs, we lose this tangible tether to their childhood, and so we're not just crying about the loss of the dog we had yesterday, but about the loss of the puppy we brought home and the human puppies we brought it home to. And then all the other versions of everyone that we'll never get to be with in real time again. To have the electrical stuff on top of that, with no helpful help, is just cruel. Random, but cruel all the same. Your words made me choke up. Sending empathy and love.
Yes I feel all of that, and I think one grief brings up all the others and there’s just been so much of that the last few years. Every time I feel like I might be catching my breath, I’m in it again. But it’s okay, it’s just part of life and part of the deal when you give your heart to people and dogs and somehow it doesn’t kill you. It just feels like it will. Love and hugs, thank you for your kindness ❤️
Oh, gosh, Ally. That's a lot. Here's hoping you can take some solace from all the love heading your way. You are not alone. You are much loved and cherished, and so was Chewy. He's over the rainbow bridge and you gave him an excellent life. Glitch in the matrix sounds about right.
Ally, this is all awful. I was exhausted just contemplating the electrical issue, but then you lost your fur buddy? I’m so so sorry. Sending hugs and strength ❤️
Thank you, Eileen. It’s been rough, but I’m up north and I saw my son tonight for the first time in 5 weeks, and I’m in a king size bed in a hotel with my daughter watching mindless tv. It’s not even mindless, it’s crap. Which feels right at the moment. We cried a lot driving up here and I’m sure we’ll cry some more, but we’re also thinking about all the good times with our boy. He really was the best. Somehow we’ll get through it because that’s all you can do. And the electrical stuff will get sorted, hopefully sooner than later. Sending you lots of love xx
In a king sized hotel bed watching crap sounds like just the place to be. Glad you have your kids to support you in celebrating Chewy’s life. Hope the weekend is gentle on you all. ❤️
Ugh, I’m so sorry. Losing a pet sucks. Tomorrow is the third anniversary of mine and my husband’s first dog, and it’s all I’ve been thinking about lately, so to read this news from you just makes me so, so sad for you. It just sucks, through and through, and literally nothing makes it better. I’m so sorry for your loss.
This is so awful and with such a huge loss. I am so sorry. Sending hugs your way. And no, don’t do the podcast or anything right now except what feels right and gentle. Ugh, losing a dog is THE WORST pain. 💔💔
So sad and so sorry your fur friend has gone - it’s just the saddest fucking thing when they leave you - and now, of all times 💔. A hug across the hemispheres ❤️
Thank you so much, Cathy. It really is the saddest fucking thing and I didn’t see it coming and even when it looked bad I just didn’t want to believe it. Thank you for the hug and for understanding. So hard to lose people and furry family members 💔 And so comforting when people understand 🙏🏼
Am not sure why but it was you who my mind first went to when I woke this morning. That you should have lost your best friend and then that happened to your country. I am so so sorry for all your losses and your pain Ally. For yours and all your fellow Americans. So fucking sorry. 💔💔💔💔💔
Cathy this is so kind of you. Truly, I cannot express what it means to me that you thought of me this morning, it literally brings tears to my eyes. I am not gonna sugarcoat it, I’m down right now. I just wrote about it. That helped a bit like it always does. But my god this country. I just don’t even know what to say or how to feel right now. I’ll get there, but yeah. Not a good couple of weeks at all. Your message helped a lot, though. In every way that matters. Thank you.
Oh, Ally. I'm so so sorry. Been there. I know what it feels like to not take a full breath for 6 months (without even realizing it) because somehow, with great effort, you're actively holding yourself together. I see that this is a month old, and I know it's still fresh. If I can do anything... I mean it. I'm an artist. I can draw him. If you want. Sending love.
Oh Wendy, this is so kind of you. Thank you for your condolences. I miss him so much I can’t believe it. I mean, I can, but it’s stunning and relentless. He was such a good, good boy. And really? I think I would love that. I’ll message you, thank you so much <3
I'm late catching up on posts and just got to this one this morning. Holy fuck. I was so annoyed through the whole electrical thing, thinking what a bunch of morons - almost like dealing with the cable people which takes a million phone calls referring themselves back and forth to avoid the issues, months of frustration, and then always the shittiest resolution . . . and then got completely sucker punched by the loss of your dog. Losing a fuzzball is the absolute worst heartbreak imaginable. My gosh, we've all been there and wish that kind of pain and grief on nobody ever. The only way through is lots of tears and trying to hold onto the good memories, in tiny little pieces, in between utter despair. It gets a little bit lighter over time, never goes away. I'm so truly sorry that happened to you and your family. And then this week happened on top of that. I'm pretty sure I would be toast. That's too much to take on so soon. Whatever bravery, resilience, courage, something left out there in the world - I want it all to go to you now. Holding you in my heart.
Oh Heidi thank you so much. I have to say it’s been a particularly horrible few weeks. The electrical stuff has finally died down, not totally resolved but SoCal Edison replaced the transformer on our block and I finally found a trustworthy electrician who remembers my name, wtf and lol I guess. He’s going to start work early next week. The loss of my dog would have been awful at any time, but I admit this was especially painful. I’ve been feeling bereft and the election absolutely knocked the wind out of me. I’ve been mostly in my pajamas this week. Today is the first day I feel some energy returning. Thank you for the kindness and condolences and love. I really, really appreciate it ❤️
Losing my two cats - the first pets I’d had an adult - one year apart was one of the most agonizing experiences of my entire life. And I’ve been through some crazy shit. NOTHING undid me like that.
I’ve said this elsewhere so often because it’s what I try to offer as a weird comfort - grieving a pet is so fucking awful because it’s not a complicated relationship. You loved him, he loved you, that was it. It’s not like when humans die and we think about all the complicated stuff. There’s no regret or things left unsaid.
I hope you spend the next week taking extra good care of yourself. It sucks. It hurts SO BAD. SO BAD. I keened like a Sicilian widow for weeks.
Sending the biggest hug and a virtual pint of ice cream. ❤️
PS - mad at the universe for doing this to you RIGHT NOW. I mean come on. Election week??? Not cool.
Thanks so much, Kari. It really is like a knife through your heart. It was good for us to be together this weekend. I FaceTimed my son as Chewy was fading so he could say goodbye and it was fucking horrific. He was sobbing and there wasn’t anything I could do. I hadn’t seen him in 5 weeks, so getting to hug him and cry together was healing at least. And my daughter was my copilot on the 6-hour drive there and back so it was good quality time and we cried and also laughed about what a great, sweet, gentle giant he was. But I came home last night and he wasn’t here and he isn’t here now and ugh. It’s just painful. And it is so pure. It’s just pure love and then pure grief. And the pure hell of this election. We’re gonna get through this but yeah. This has not been an easy few weeks. Sending love and hugs and thank you for yours. Felt and appreciated. And I’m so sorry for your loss, too 💔💔 Please let us have something to celebrate this week 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Oh, I am so sorry. We lost a very loved good boy a couple of years ago and my heart is still broken. I still look for him in the spaces he used to fill. The moments I didn't realize until they were gone. Hugs to all of you on your loss.
Thank you so much, Sara. I feel that exactly. Everything is kind of in pieces but I know we all loved him all the way for 12 years and he loved us like that, too. That gives me some comfort along with all the love here. Thank you ❤️
Oh Ally, I’m so sorry about your fur baby’s loss. I can’t even imagine how hard that must be to get over. I have 2 of them and every day I say out loud “please live another 30 years!” And I want to say something about the lights. Flickering lights are sometimes our loved ones coming back to say hi to us. I know that sounds superstitious but it’s happened to me one too many times when I was thinking about someone I just lost and there goes the lights flickering. Anyway I hope your heart finds solace in the coming days. Love you ❤️
Yes it’s never enough time no matter how much time you get. And if those flickering lights are a message from anyone, that would be my mom. She always made an entrance lol. Thanks for your condolences. My daughter and I are up north visiting my son and it’s been comforting for us to be together. Hugs.
I hate that he’s gone, too. Every time I think about it my eyes well up because if you’ve ever experienced the pain of saying goodbye to a dog, your eyes won’t ever not tear up when someone else is saying goodbye to theirs. It’s a singular, painful painful painful experience.
I’m so sorry there’s so much shit. I wish I could come cry in the couch and hear Chewy stories, but please know I’m over here in AZ holding a corner of that grief with you. He was the very best boy— I can tell ❤️
PS fuck that electrician with stupid reasons
Kate, I don’t know what I would have done without you the last two weeks, and I do feel you holding up a corner of the sky for me. I wish you could come sit on the couch, too. I don’t know how we say goodbye to our sweet, good, bestest dogs. It hurts so much and I still can’t believe he’s gone. It doesn’t seem possible. But I’m so lucky to have friends like you who understand and let me sob. Now I just need to find an electrician who doesn’t call me Jennifer. Love you.
Love you back Jennifer 🙃
Seriously tho, I’m glad you trust me to hold up a corner of your sky. Wish I did electrical work— I’d wire you a whole new sky.
Jennifer💀I mean, you can’t make this up. And I know you would, and same❤️
Oh Ally, I'm so so sorry about your sweet Chewy. I know for sure he was the goodest good boy that every lived (as are all dogs) and it's just so fucking unfair that dogs don't live forever. Sending you and your kids so much love, I know how devastating it is to lose our pups. I still find myself looking for our best girl Molly who died almost 9 months ago 💔
Thank you so much, Sonbol. I lost my last dog 2 weeks before I had my son and thought the grief might kill me. Watching my kids go through this heartbreak is awful. I know we’ll all get through it because there isn’t an alternative, but it’s so hard. I’m so sorry about your Molly 💔Dogs really should live a lot longer, that’s the only thing I’d change. Sending you lots of love x
I'm so sorry, Ally. About all of it. Mostly about Chewy, and about how when we lose our kids' childhood dogs, we lose this tangible tether to their childhood, and so we're not just crying about the loss of the dog we had yesterday, but about the loss of the puppy we brought home and the human puppies we brought it home to. And then all the other versions of everyone that we'll never get to be with in real time again. To have the electrical stuff on top of that, with no helpful help, is just cruel. Random, but cruel all the same. Your words made me choke up. Sending empathy and love.
Yes I feel all of that, and I think one grief brings up all the others and there’s just been so much of that the last few years. Every time I feel like I might be catching my breath, I’m in it again. But it’s okay, it’s just part of life and part of the deal when you give your heart to people and dogs and somehow it doesn’t kill you. It just feels like it will. Love and hugs, thank you for your kindness ❤️
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Oh, gosh, Ally. That's a lot. Here's hoping you can take some solace from all the love heading your way. You are not alone. You are much loved and cherished, and so was Chewy. He's over the rainbow bridge and you gave him an excellent life. Glitch in the matrix sounds about right.
The love helps a lot. The comment section here always makes me cry in a good way. Life just hurts sometimes, no way around it. Hugs xx
Ally, this is all awful. I was exhausted just contemplating the electrical issue, but then you lost your fur buddy? I’m so so sorry. Sending hugs and strength ❤️
Thank you, Eileen. It’s been rough, but I’m up north and I saw my son tonight for the first time in 5 weeks, and I’m in a king size bed in a hotel with my daughter watching mindless tv. It’s not even mindless, it’s crap. Which feels right at the moment. We cried a lot driving up here and I’m sure we’ll cry some more, but we’re also thinking about all the good times with our boy. He really was the best. Somehow we’ll get through it because that’s all you can do. And the electrical stuff will get sorted, hopefully sooner than later. Sending you lots of love xx
In a king sized hotel bed watching crap sounds like just the place to be. Glad you have your kids to support you in celebrating Chewy’s life. Hope the weekend is gentle on you all. ❤️
Ugh, I’m so sorry. Losing a pet sucks. Tomorrow is the third anniversary of mine and my husband’s first dog, and it’s all I’ve been thinking about lately, so to read this news from you just makes me so, so sad for you. It just sucks, through and through, and literally nothing makes it better. I’m so sorry for your loss.
I’m sorry for your loss, too, Kate. They just take your heart over and when they leave they take a piece of it with them 💔💔 Hugs
Oops, meant to write third anniversary of our first dog’s passing. Derp.
This is so awful and with such a huge loss. I am so sorry. Sending hugs your way. And no, don’t do the podcast or anything right now except what feels right and gentle. Ugh, losing a dog is THE WORST pain. 💔💔
They just love you so purely the goodbye rips your heart out. Thanks for the love 🙏🏼
"They just love you so purely..."
Yes, they do. I'm so sorry, and I hurt for you. Lots of love & hugs to you and the kiddos ❤️💕
So sad and so sorry your fur friend has gone - it’s just the saddest fucking thing when they leave you - and now, of all times 💔. A hug across the hemispheres ❤️
Thank you so much, Cathy. It really is the saddest fucking thing and I didn’t see it coming and even when it looked bad I just didn’t want to believe it. Thank you for the hug and for understanding. So hard to lose people and furry family members 💔 And so comforting when people understand 🙏🏼
Am not sure why but it was you who my mind first went to when I woke this morning. That you should have lost your best friend and then that happened to your country. I am so so sorry for all your losses and your pain Ally. For yours and all your fellow Americans. So fucking sorry. 💔💔💔💔💔
Cathy this is so kind of you. Truly, I cannot express what it means to me that you thought of me this morning, it literally brings tears to my eyes. I am not gonna sugarcoat it, I’m down right now. I just wrote about it. That helped a bit like it always does. But my god this country. I just don’t even know what to say or how to feel right now. I’ll get there, but yeah. Not a good couple of weeks at all. Your message helped a lot, though. In every way that matters. Thank you.
Oh, Ally. I'm so so sorry. Been there. I know what it feels like to not take a full breath for 6 months (without even realizing it) because somehow, with great effort, you're actively holding yourself together. I see that this is a month old, and I know it's still fresh. If I can do anything... I mean it. I'm an artist. I can draw him. If you want. Sending love.
Oh Wendy, this is so kind of you. Thank you for your condolences. I miss him so much I can’t believe it. I mean, I can, but it’s stunning and relentless. He was such a good, good boy. And really? I think I would love that. I’ll message you, thank you so much <3
I'm late catching up on posts and just got to this one this morning. Holy fuck. I was so annoyed through the whole electrical thing, thinking what a bunch of morons - almost like dealing with the cable people which takes a million phone calls referring themselves back and forth to avoid the issues, months of frustration, and then always the shittiest resolution . . . and then got completely sucker punched by the loss of your dog. Losing a fuzzball is the absolute worst heartbreak imaginable. My gosh, we've all been there and wish that kind of pain and grief on nobody ever. The only way through is lots of tears and trying to hold onto the good memories, in tiny little pieces, in between utter despair. It gets a little bit lighter over time, never goes away. I'm so truly sorry that happened to you and your family. And then this week happened on top of that. I'm pretty sure I would be toast. That's too much to take on so soon. Whatever bravery, resilience, courage, something left out there in the world - I want it all to go to you now. Holding you in my heart.
Oh Heidi thank you so much. I have to say it’s been a particularly horrible few weeks. The electrical stuff has finally died down, not totally resolved but SoCal Edison replaced the transformer on our block and I finally found a trustworthy electrician who remembers my name, wtf and lol I guess. He’s going to start work early next week. The loss of my dog would have been awful at any time, but I admit this was especially painful. I’ve been feeling bereft and the election absolutely knocked the wind out of me. I’ve been mostly in my pajamas this week. Today is the first day I feel some energy returning. Thank you for the kindness and condolences and love. I really, really appreciate it ❤️
Losing my two cats - the first pets I’d had an adult - one year apart was one of the most agonizing experiences of my entire life. And I’ve been through some crazy shit. NOTHING undid me like that.
I’ve said this elsewhere so often because it’s what I try to offer as a weird comfort - grieving a pet is so fucking awful because it’s not a complicated relationship. You loved him, he loved you, that was it. It’s not like when humans die and we think about all the complicated stuff. There’s no regret or things left unsaid.
I hope you spend the next week taking extra good care of yourself. It sucks. It hurts SO BAD. SO BAD. I keened like a Sicilian widow for weeks.
Sending the biggest hug and a virtual pint of ice cream. ❤️
PS - mad at the universe for doing this to you RIGHT NOW. I mean come on. Election week??? Not cool.
Thanks so much, Kari. It really is like a knife through your heart. It was good for us to be together this weekend. I FaceTimed my son as Chewy was fading so he could say goodbye and it was fucking horrific. He was sobbing and there wasn’t anything I could do. I hadn’t seen him in 5 weeks, so getting to hug him and cry together was healing at least. And my daughter was my copilot on the 6-hour drive there and back so it was good quality time and we cried and also laughed about what a great, sweet, gentle giant he was. But I came home last night and he wasn’t here and he isn’t here now and ugh. It’s just painful. And it is so pure. It’s just pure love and then pure grief. And the pure hell of this election. We’re gonna get through this but yeah. This has not been an easy few weeks. Sending love and hugs and thank you for yours. Felt and appreciated. And I’m so sorry for your loss, too 💔💔 Please let us have something to celebrate this week 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Oh, I am so sorry. We lost a very loved good boy a couple of years ago and my heart is still broken. I still look for him in the spaces he used to fill. The moments I didn't realize until they were gone. Hugs to all of you on your loss.
Thank you, Michele. I’m so sorry for your loss, too. It’s such a heartbreak 💔 Lots of love to you x
I am so so sorry… loss of a loved one crashes our world. Blessings to you.
Thank you so much, Sara. I feel that exactly. Everything is kind of in pieces but I know we all loved him all the way for 12 years and he loved us like that, too. That gives me some comfort along with all the love here. Thank you ❤️
Oh Ally, I’m so sorry about your fur baby’s loss. I can’t even imagine how hard that must be to get over. I have 2 of them and every day I say out loud “please live another 30 years!” And I want to say something about the lights. Flickering lights are sometimes our loved ones coming back to say hi to us. I know that sounds superstitious but it’s happened to me one too many times when I was thinking about someone I just lost and there goes the lights flickering. Anyway I hope your heart finds solace in the coming days. Love you ❤️
Yes it’s never enough time no matter how much time you get. And if those flickering lights are a message from anyone, that would be my mom. She always made an entrance lol. Thanks for your condolences. My daughter and I are up north visiting my son and it’s been comforting for us to be together. Hugs.
i’m sorry for your loss, sending you my heart until you get yours back
Oh Janet, thank you 🙏🏼
Oh Ally, I'm so sorry. It's the hardest thing. Sending love to your whole family. ❤️🙏
Thanks so much, Rob 🙏🏼❤️